I’m afraid.
I have so many dreams. I’m afraid i cant accomplish it. I have set my goal for this year. Yet suddenly so many opportunities come to me.
One thing for sure, i have to must finish my thesis really soon. I must graduate this July. That’s it. But i’m afraid i cant. God, please help me. Please make me stronger through these things.
XOXO,
S
Holla!! i’m back!! :D i’m glad to be home!! meet my comfort bed and specially the internet :)
But i love my KKN stuffs also..hahaha.. Tinggal di Code selama kurang dari seminggu ternyata menyenangkan juga.. Kerjaan tiap hari kebanyakan sih agak nganggur, sempet bantu ngecat tembok di pinggir bantaran subuh2, bantu penimbangan di posyandu.. udah gitu ngasih penyuluhan komposter. Do u know composter? Alat pemanfaatan sampah yang outputnya bisa dijadiin pupuk. Dan ternyata penggunaannya pun relatif mudah. Yang penting larutan EM4 nya bekerja dgn sempurna aja sih.. Kerjaan rutin di sini adl ngajar anak2 belajar. Karakter anak2 di setiap RW pun beda2.. Yg di RW 8 plg brutal..haha.. karena jumlah mereka tergolong banyak dan dr berbagai umur. RW 7 karena masi pd kecil2 jadi lumayan nurut. RW 1 yg paling males dan lebih prefer maen bola ketimbang belajar. lol. Dan para pria pengajar akhirnya malah tanding sepakbola.
It’s nice being a teacher. Tp susah jg kalo yg diajar ga ngerti2, bikin naek darah.haha.. Dan kebanyakan anak disana menganggap Bahasa Inggris adalah momok. How come? Padahal dari jaman aku SD, english is one of my fave lessons.. hihi.. Anak kecil2 lebih sopan. Kalo mau pulang mereka cium tangan dulu. Lucu skaliii :)
About my friends. Banyak banget karakter yg tumpah ruah disini. Yah, bayangin aja, 20 orang ngumpul jadi 1. Ada yg dominan, ada yg suka jd badut kelompok alias super konyol, ada yg nurutan, ada yg polos, ada yg lemot jg, ada ahli konsultasi spiritual, ghost hunter, dll dll dll. Tapi semuanya cukup menyenangkan. I really had fun with them :) Sempet ada bbrp ketegangan selama live-in. Tp oke lah, anggap lah itu bumbu2 pelengkap. haha..
Enaknya KKN di Code adalah ADPL gak terlalu strict dan ga suka meriksa2. jarang banget ada sidak. We can do whatever we want to. Gampang banget buat keluar dr lokasi. Ditambah lagi kita ga disediain makan dr induk semang. Di penggal utara dan tengah, mereka dpt makan 3 kali sehari dan snack. Di penggal selatan, duit dikasih 30000/hari buat makan. And we could save a lot from that. Dan keuntungannya adl kita slalu kluar dr lokasi buat cari makan :)
Selama aku KKN aja udah sempet 2x pulang dan makan d rumah. yay! terus jalan ke superindo, pasar beringharjo, sama ke dewats. Sering banget berkunjung ke penggal utara dan tengah. Nasib jd penghuni di ujung bawah, plg jarang dikunjungi.. Yg ada malah dikunjungi sama si PhD kampret. lol. Makanan yg udah disambangi, Mc.D, soto di pasar, bakso bethesda, ayam goreng code, sate podomoro, angkringan depan rusun, warung ramesan di depan pasar demangan, nasgor babi pasar, nasgor babat. Ga terlalu banyak makan tp ntah mengapa aku mrasa semakin gendut :(
Everything was so fun! Dulu rasanya jalan dr kelurahan ke rusun tuh jauh banget. Tapi pas live in kok jd brasa deket ya? Udah gitu warga di Code pun ramah2. Tapi ada sialnya jg denk KKN di penggal selatan, Mr. X yg cerewet dan banyak maunya itu tidak membiarkan kita kabur begitu saja.. posko hrs tetep ada yg jaga.. ealah bos2, kapan rampung’e nek ngene iki??!! *translate : kapan selesainya kalo kaya gini?* lol.
Not to forget, i met 3 wonderful dogs, named Dedek, Noni, and MOchi. Dedek is a golden, and he’s so smart. Just like Buddy in Airbud movie. He plays soccer very well. Noni is a Tsi-Zhu. Sedikit ga terawat, tp lucu bangettttt… Mochi is a tekkel. Sangat2 nakal. Sukanya gigitin buntutnya Noni. But they are very2 gorgeous!!
Malam terakhir di lokasi diisi dengan jalan2 ke Benteng subuh2. Foto2 is a must. Ga brasa sampe tadi foto KKN udah 250an.. wth.. Belom dr yg kamera hp sm kamera org laen. Dan masih akan terus berlanjut sampai sebulan ke depan.. oh well..
Lalu apakah ada cinta lokasi di penggal selatan?? Aku tak tahu..hahahhaa.. Maybe yes, maybe no ;p
Proker akan terus berlanjut sampe sebulan ke depan, brarti kita masi akan terus bolak balik ke Code. hiks. Melelahkan.. Selaen friendship, yg jelas hasil KKN ini meninggalkan lemak :( dan mungkin bagi sebagian orang, meninggalkan herpes.. lol. get well soon guys! KKN udah lumayan berakhir.. Saatnya kembali berkutat dengan skripshit. ganbatte!!
*see my KKN photos in facebook album : http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=155410&id=597932988 and http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=155444&id=597932988*
XOXO,
S
Okay, let me say..
I was surprised very much when u said that to me. Though i already had that feeling. I dont know, but i just could feel it. And yeah, once again, it’s unbelievable. It’s crazy.
Sorry to say, but i cant. At least for now. I need to know u more. I need to have our time together before deciding this important thing. Because i’m not a kinda girl that easily plays with a relationship. Maybe i was, when i’m a teenager. But for now, i’m thinking forward, i’m thinking about my future also. So yeah, u already understood, and everything is as simple as the beginning now.
Thank you for liking me. I cant call it love, Cause for me, it’s just too fast. Do u call it love? Or it’s just your rush? What do u feel about me? Feeling is important, It starts everything. But it’s not enough for me if u only have a feeling for me. I cant take a risk, right?
What makes u like me? haha.. How could a short daily conversation in our chat make u like me?! Haha.. It’s weird. Cause it was so random since the beginning. Plus, we’ve never met. Well, u can ask everything to me :) And by the way, answering my questions above would be lovely. lol.
XOXO,
S
Dear readers,
i will be off from my blog for a week.. Thank God it’s just a week. I will go downtown to do my KKN stuffs.. Hahahaha.. I dont know if i can find internet connection there. So bad i dont have a USB modem..
I will make a note about my KKN daily.. And i’m gonna post it when i’m home :D i hope everything’s gonna be alright. Good sleep, good food, good friends, good neighboors, good work.
I hope i wont be bored to death there..haha.. I wish i had enough entertain. lol.
See ya soon!! :)
XOXO,
S
This movie is great!! Great messages!! And all is about love :D Whatever your religion, race, and beliefs, there are only 2 differences in this world, the good people and bad people. I cried a lot..haha.. Though i saw this in theatre but i couldnt hold my tears..huahaha.. The saddest part is when Sam died.. And i must admit that Shahrukh Khan acted really good..
Well the story is about a guy, named Rizvan Khan, a Mosleem, who has an asperger syndrome, and has a lil autism. He’s afraid of loud voice, yellow, he scares to be in new place. But though he’s sick, he’s smart. He repairs almost everything.
When he was a child, his mom gave him a lesson of life that school doesnt taught. Well, Khan grows up and moves to US. He finds his love there. They got married. Fyi, Mandira is Hindhu India. So yeah, they have a different religion and worship God in different ways. They live happily, have a good relationship with the neighboor. All is perfect, until..
9/11 was happening. US people start hating Mosleems. The husband (neighboor) died when reporting news from Afghanistan. That makes his son, which is friend with Sam, angry. One thing happens and make Sam died. Mandira cant handle her feeling and anger. She blames Khan for Sam’s death. She regrets that she married a Mosleem man. She screams at Khan, tells him that he should go meet Mr. President and tell him, “MY NAME IS KHAN AND I’M NOT A TERRORIST”.
After that, the story is just about the journey of Khan in order to meet President of US. Khan struggles very hard, meets so many different people. Because of 9/11, some Mosleems are losing their identity, they remove their ‘turban’ and ‘jilbab’. But Khan is stick to his way. He prays and worships God as usual. He helps Christian people. He donates his money to African hunger kids. And so on and so on..
Okay, no more spoilers. haha.. This movie is worth to see :) I still have my puffy eyes till now..lol.
XOXO,
S
